Dear Dad,
It's been less than 24 hours since you passed, and I can't stop crying.
I figured I needed this, it's cathartic to write :) And this way it's like I'm telling you about my life.. I know you are reading this, I hear the Wifi in Heaven is perfect ;).
Lets start with the beginning!
I met you when I was 14, a sullen bratty willful teenaged girl who came to live with you and Cindy.. You know what had happened to me, I was damaged goods, but you took care of me.
I remember the first 6 months I followed Cindy around like a puppy dog, clinging to her like she was my life preserver, and you just let me do that, you let me heal slowly. Then I started realizing that you were there for me. You always were.
If I was crying you would pat my shoulder, if I was angry you'd let me be angry ( Unless it was Directed to Cindy LOL)
You taught me everything I should look for in a mate.
You were not my father by blood, but you ARE my father in the only ways that matter.
I can't really write much today because it hurts so much right now. It feels like my heart breaks, reforms and breaks again, over and over and over again, because you are gone.
I am so happy for you though Dad, you fought so hard for 2 years against your Neuroendocrine Cancer, I'm proud of you for that fight, and happy that you are no longer in pain.
The problem is that while you are no longer in pain, the rest of us can't seem to stop being in pain. I'm sure that you hate that, so I'm trying really hard to be strong and remember that you are happy now.
I love you Daddy, hope today is a good day in Heaven.
~Sarah~
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